“I was really introverted growing up. I liked talking to people but I felt as though nobody wanted to talk with me. In 7th grade most kids started going out drinking and smoking, but I would sit at home with a few friends playing YuGiOh cards and drinking Coke. At school on Monday, everyone would talk about their experiences from the weekend and I felt like I had nothing to share with them. I guess that feeling kind of stuck with me.
That changed when I went on a school project to the Czech Republic. There I had a fresh chance to be whoever I wanted, and people suddenly seemed to like me and find me interesting. Following that, people started inviting me to hang out all the time. It felt amazing that people actually wanted to spend time with me. But it got to the stage where I could hardly say no. It just felt like there was too much going on that I didn’t want to miss out on…
I think college helped put things back into perspective. This is the part of your adult when you have to start being responsible. I realised I was being stupid and childish and gave too much influence to things like the approval of others.
It was almost an existential crisis that brought me back to reality again. I have a lot of questions about whether this is the right path. As you venture into your twenties and beyond, you realise you’re not so flexible anymore. When you’re twenty you feel like you can do anything. You can change your profession, you can become a doctor, you can travel the world. But as you get older and approach the years you’re expected to have a family, you start wondering if you’ve done the right thing. I wonder whether I should do something crazy like inventing an app or something. Or whether I should stick with what I’m doing right now and live this so-called “normal” life.
I think the worst existential crises come in my room alone. When I feel bad, I feel that nothing makes sense so usually go out and do something. It’s a simple approach, but it helps a lot. Going out just dampens that feeling of isolation and dread.“
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