“All my life I’ve been observing and trying to notice everything. I went to acting school for fourteen years. They teach you that if you want to imitate someone, if you want to be somebody else, you have to feel like them. I’m so used to feeling like other people that I’m finally trying to focus on being myself now.
When I finished university and I had a summer without performances or plans, I took my phone out and I didn’t know who to call. I found myself with free time but with nothing else around me and that’s when I realised I have no life. I thought my life was so busy and meaningful but in one moment I realised I didn’t have anything.
I’m currently in Poland working with kids because I wanted to go away and volunteer somewhere. It started because I was just pissed off with my life and what I was doing. I decided it was time to change it!
For me, work isn’t just repetitive or without purpose, I really love to create. I grew up with army discipline. I had a passion about theatre and acting, and I was ready to spend all my days working towards it. When I’m motivated I don’t have any problems. I think my record is 70 hours without sleeping.
Three weeks ago I was totally in a mess. But I think I needed it. I don’t know exactly what caused it but I decided to go away for one week. I went with the aim of finding myself and finding some goal to work towards. By the third day I found myself waiting impatiently for this revelation.”
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